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Winter Break


I realize I haven't been that present on this site in the past few months. Half of this is due to Tumblr, music and art, and the other half from life in general. The holiday season has prompted a laid-back but quite busy winter break full of numerous family events and outings. Though it's only been a little over a week since break started, it's felt like forever. I've had fun this break but the return to everyday life will be welcome.

I celebrate Christmas; I think most of you have seen by now the charming depiction of Our Lord and Savior Santa I posted to commemorate it. In all honesty, I have enjoyed the season very much. Bright lights, homemade cookies and 50s music are the stuff nostalgia is made of. It was nice to spend a good week with my family and my kitty cats. However, I've found it increasingly difficult as I grow older to get into the "holiday spirit," as it's called, but the time off has still been nice. The days leading up to Christmas were spent drawing fantasy and listening to the Pixies; I can't complain.

The days following Christmas have melted into a sort of semi-productive sludge from which I've found it hard to escape-- without school I feel like I've lost my sense of purpose. I wake up every morning, go for walks, read books, listen to music, eat, sleep, eat sleep, eat, sleep... life goes by quietly. I appreciate the free time but end up feeling thoroughly unfulfilled every day. I miss my friends and I miss having responsibility. And I recently had my PSAT scores returned to me, which were discouragingly mediocre (at least by my standards), so that doesn't help too much. However, I have enjoy the surplus time to draw, during which I've picked up digital paining again and am slowly improving on, the time to listen to lots of new music, and the opportunity to appreciate the beautiful winter weather.

2014 Ho!

The past year, I'm happy to say, has been quite a journey. I went from being depressed to angry to disheartened to content to somewhere I would actually call happy. I've made a few great friendships and gotten better at math. On my birthday people always ask me if I feel any different, and I always tell them I never do. This year, however, I feel like I'm a very different person-- not necessarily more mature or any more ready for the world, but different. Hopefully I will be able to harvest all the fruit Sweet Sixteen has to offer... maybe finally take my driving test and get my license. I'm not expecting any 4.0s or any girlfriends or any human contact or anything crazy and outlandish like that, but with some time and effort maybe I'll get a little closer. I'll look for colleges, watch my brother start high school, watch my sister start preschool, get into a new subgenre of 90s alternative rock; watch people and places collide with myself and each other and then drift away like tectonic plates. I'll brace for impact.

30,000 Pageviews and Final Gratz

Welp, I made it. 10,000 pageviews in roughly eight months, with the latter 5,000 in less than four. I thank all my various watchers and friends on DA who made this possible-- even if I don't talk to you guys much anymore, I very much appreciate your dedication to my chronically sporadic account.

I wish you all a happy new year (whenever it may be or may have been), and hope it ends up as something to be proud of.

See ya in da Hood,

--Jakob
  • Listening to: Postmadonna- Cathy
  • Reading: Vanity Fair
  • Eating: Cookies
  • Drinking: Water

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This DA page smells to catz
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MasterofMars Dec 22, 2013  Professional General Artist
Hello, friend. Remember me?
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:iconragnaul:
Ragnaul Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Indeedly, seņor; it's been a while. What have you been doing these past few months?
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MasterofMars Dec 22, 2013  Professional General Artist

your mom

I've been messing around with school stuff and irl stuff and Wikipedia sites.

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Ragnaul Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice to hear. Have you been lurking around this site incognito all this time or did you actually leave it?
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:iconunheard-canon:

my god...why havent i watched you before

 

*goes do it*

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Ragnaul Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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Candor-Shade Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You fail at life because you don't embrace your true lolicon passions, not because you get a poor score on finals aljefklawjflea JOIN MEEEE
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Ragnaul Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Jesus, can't you think about anything other than sex? Why don't you get a hobby or some aspirations that don't revolve around little cartoon girls? I've had a long fucking day and I'm sick of you telling me to essentially ditch the life I have to become some gross failure. If you thought about anything else, maybe I would talk to you more!
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Candor-Shade Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well so much for trying to just toss jokes around... You've never really once said what was so great about your own life or really given reasons as to why you consider some things successes and some things failures -- or perhaps in your eyes even doubting colloquial definitions of success and failure makes someone a likely failure? Value systems and human attachment I think I've brought up to be things I think about but I guess you're not really the type of person to question those.

If this was how you felt you should have just spoke up some time ago... It's just in my nature to joke around rather than yell at people after "a long fucking day", that's how my friends have always sort of treated me (which is better than the stuff I've got from family), but I guess I can't really tell you to do the same. I admit, very often I want to yell at people or hit them because they're distracting me with pretty much pointless conversation and expectation, and it's just in my nature to counter with my own unproductive things and try and laugh things off.
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Candor-Shade Oct 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If you can't talk to me give me some lolis at least please
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Miragician Oct 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
anythunk new goin' on
i'm still alive ._.
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Ragnaul Oct 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Not in particular. Started 11th grade, lots of school, turned sixteen, lots of school. Haven't done any proper digital art in prolly close to three weeks now; I've been completely inactive here by most standards.

How 'bout you, my admirable compatriot? You're in your senior year now, right?
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Miragician Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wrote a 1122 word journal here: miragician.deviantart.com/jour…
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kittimitti Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! I'm sorry it's a bit late,  but I still hope you had a great day.
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Ragnaul Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I did! Thank you very much!
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kittimitti Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

That's great! Everyone deserves an amazing birthday.

And your welcome.

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Candor-Shade Oct 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday, you are one step closer to becoming a loli-pedo!
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Ragnaul Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconreactionplz:
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Candor-Shade Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
who dat
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yasmyn64 Oct 19, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Happy birthday!!!
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Ragnaul Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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yasmyn64 Oct 20, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Np, sorry that I didn't make a fanart 4 u....
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fantasylover100 Oct 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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Happy birthday
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